Rewards and clear thinking

Now is one of those time when clear thinking makes so much impact. As scary as "slow and steady" have proven to be I think, ultimately, that it will make all the difference in my work. I still have writing to do, but what I've written I am happy with and I have a plan to accomplish all of my studying and papers that still allows me to stop and spend time with my husband without worrying, to take fifteen minutes to make tea and play a game of Dr.Mario and let my mind wander. I think it will be good.

Last night at 1 in the morning, as I was contentedly heading for bed, I accidentally erased, irretrievably, the opening paragraph to my English paper I had thrilled to have finished, and all the modifications to the paper I had made. I frantically woke Tom, who had been dozing tranquilly on my shoulder, and compelled him to search my computer for it while I curled up and cried - as I'm prone to at bedtime. At 2 in the morning Tom prayed over me, for peace, and I stopped crying and fell asleep. This morning I woke up at 10 and with a calm mind was able to recall nearly every word.

It also feels to me as if God stretched out my time in front of me, to give me just enough time, if I worked hard and with clear thinking, not only my meet my deadlines but to love those around me and to give Him the glory as I do it. Please pray for me that I use the time he's given me.

Eric and Julia's wedding is today and I'm so excited to go. I love weddings and I love my church, and I love wearing the red, hand-me-down dress I got from Tom's mom. And I love eating. I am blessed over and over again. How can I worry?