Life now

This morning as I made the rounds of my virtual beat I wondered suddenly why I had started my blog. Was it because I got married and wanted to share my new life with friends and family and strangers, to inform them and inspire them and make them feel close?

I don't think it was. As I looked through some of my old post I realize why I did started my blog. It's because that same month that I got married, and a new part of my life unfolded before me - full of beauty and excitement and so much emotion and drama - I also went back to school.

My posts seem to have come spilling out the backdoor of my mind while an intellectual discussion raged in the foyer; always on the edge of flight, rarely committing itself to the inner chambers where, anyway, each room was already taken by some passion, kind or cruel, or by some lonely, brooding, or simply pining, soul.

My entries have been purges, sometimes emotional and more interesting, sometimes mental and insubstantial: the dregs of the cerebral barrel (there's some nice imagery) that I nonetheless relish languishing in, easily contented as I can be.

This analysis is not going to be followed by some grand plan or revelation; like so much of my blog, it just is.

Though, I am curious to see, now that my school days are over, and my newlywed days are over (but don't feel sad for us, it's better and more thrilling than ever somehow) what will become of my life and, subsequently, my blog. Now that the rooms of my mind are airing out I'm pausing to consider what occasion is on the horizon; who I will entertain next, and when.

It is a little intimidating but I know I can't continue this way forever. This is only a season in my life and it is feeling shorter everyday.

My muscles are coiling to spring, I just wish I knew where I'd be landing.

But I know it's somewhere better. I have no need to worry.