"In God We Trust"

In God's grace and perfect timing I became enamored of the idea of living more simply right before we got into financial trouble.

Just when we think we are behind we somehow get ahead, but just when we think we're ahead we get behind - every time.

Today I was handed a big wad of cash, more than I suppose I was expecting and just what we "needed" for our baby savings. Now, a couple hours later I am wondering if all those baby savings will be gone in the blink of an eye, or push of a button, due to Tom's and my misunderstanding with the bank.

I struggle so much not to hate the bank when it seems they are profiting from my ignorance. And yet, I remain ignorant and am as much to blame for it as they because of my carelessness.

So I have learned a lesson, another one, I have learned these lessons again and again and yet continue to forget and ignore it repeatedly: the bank doesn't have our back and we cannot afford to be careless.

But there is a lesson that I learn even more often and one that I do not forget even in these times of trial: God does provide.

I think, maybe, we will keep the savings for the baby and pay off the amount we owe every month. Despite interest accruing against us it doesn't feel right to use that money for something else. But maybe we will.

Either way, we can get out of this fix. But this time I hope, and I pray, that we will learn to be more careful. That we will spend our time wisely tracking our spending and spending less. I hate to be duped. And I hate to be careless.

God will provide money. God will provide wisdom too. I must trust Him in all things.