Day twenty eight

I couldn't think of "something I'm afraid of" to write about today that wasn't completely depressing. So instead I took a break from catching up and did this:

I've been saving the scrap paper drawings from art class to show Tom what I've been doing.

Today I had to bring home my portfolio for some weekend work and my scraps came home with it, so I got out some gaff tape and finally filled that wall space above our bed! It won't last long I'm sure, and then I will toss those scraps. But Tom will like this and he'll get to see some of my work without having to sit down and go through it by hand.

On top of that, as I went along I realized, this is what I'm afraid of! This term; everything I'm doing. I told Tom yesterday that I feel like I'm in the deep end with all that's required of me. (And I'm a terrible swimmer!)

I am afraid - to fail, though I'm sure I won't. And I'm also sure that this term will be good for me. Already I am using the time I have more wisely than before. I'm planning ahead and being less wasteful, I'm developing habits that, if I stick with them, will serve me well once I'm done with school.

But I'm also having dreams that my teeth are falling out... It's a fine balance.

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On another note: I found out what was coming from Sunbeam. It was the replacement Crock Pot they'd been trying to send me. The "pot" I got for Christmas didn't work but when I wrote the company about it I accidentally left off our apartment number in our address (not realizing that they would immediately send me a new crock pot, no questions asked, not even, "What's your address again?"). I've been getting email after email from the deliverers telling me "It's coming! To this address (minus apt. #)," but I couldn't open the attachments with my tracking information or respond to emails or anything! It was little by little stressing me out more and more. So the fact that they've figured it all out and that it's here and over is something to check off the stress-list! A sunbeam indeed.